You Choose

Change is a hard concept for me. I have always been a person who finds comfort and stays there for as long as I can, which I've come to find, can be extremely toxic. I wanted to go to war with this after I saw how self destructive I was becoming. I didn't love myself, I pulled happiness off other people and I hid it all so well even the most important person thought everything was okay, me. At the end of the day I had to jump, and I fell. I hit a state that I've never reached before; emotional, lonely terror. This sounds awful but it's the most beautiful thing to happen to me yet. I let go, I let go of who I thought I was, of the past and surrounded myself with only those who gave me a sense of purpose. When one chooses to transition towards change it no longer becomes a heartache, but a journey into the unknown.

My journey has recently started. Now, it seems like I lived my life for so long conforming to opinions, stereo types, and unrealistic standards especially in high school. Where everything feels like a competition, luckily I phased out of that fairly quick. Aside from all the hardships any of us endure we've all been given this amazing experience. To live, to truly be alive and aware of your life and your time here. Don't be a prisoner behind the social structure of what's acceptable and what's not. Follow the crazy ideas you have, chase what makes your heart beat out of it's chest, choose to be awake.